A few weeks ago in a training union study, the author asked "what is something you look forward to doing one day when your priorities change?" Some people suggested they would love to travel and others had different things that they would love to do with their life. I looked at my page at what I had wrote and although it was extremely superficial, the one thing I looked forward too one day when I could make the time and have the money for myself was just simply to get my nails done. Nothing extravagant but it was something I used to do for myself that I no longer could. Our teacher (whom I adore more than she will ever know) suggested that one of the best things that you could do when you're feeling overwhelmed and depressed was to do something really nice for someone else.
The following week was one of the worst ones I have had in a very long time. I spent eight hours a day getting cursed, yelled and screamed at by people that I don't even know because apparently I, single-handedly, went into every single home in Jones county and the surrounding counties and caused everyone's power bill to go up. Then I came home to a child who I love more than my own life but spent the next few hours battling with him on every single thing we did. Then in the moments in between, I desperately missed my husband. The struggle was real folks. One day after getting the mail, putting it in my lap and putting my car in park I proceeded to have the world's biggest meltdown in my carport. I allowed all of the world's attacks and negativity to overwhelm me in that moment. Years ago I read a book that stated in any moment when you feel like you have lost control, all you need to do is whisper the name of Jesus. I Immediately began to say His name over and over and over until I had completely calmed myself. There really is power in the name of Jesus. I then looked in my lap at the mail and on the very top was a card addressed to me that simply stated " I hope this brings a smile to your face. Love your sister in Christ". When I opened it there sat a gift certificate for me to have my nails done. A small gesture on someone else's part was able to actually bring a smile to my face and in a moment where I felt like I was losing everything it reminded me of God's love and compassion, and renewed, refreshed and restored my faith in people. Although I would love nothing more than to thank the person who actually did this for me, I know that they would rather stay anonymous. So this is my thank you. God knew in that moment I would need to know I wasn't invisible. He saw me. He heard my cry. He knew my struggle. He loved me. He had not forgotten me.
Although it wasn't much, I was able to pay it forward for someone else today. It lifted my spirits in a way I'm sure it did for whomever did it for me. I encourage you to seek someone you can minister too and bless today. We are Gods hands and feet. I will forever be grateful for the one who chose to bless me.
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